Its a reason to blog!

Long since I actually blogged.. Lotsa happpenings that I wanted to post! But limited time! I know that is a bad excuse but something or the other always kept popping up that there has been no time to think of blogging. Nevertheless I got a reason to blog! For people who know me why I am blogging, you are absolutely correct! Yes! I am angry and frustrated!

I ve no definite reason to be angry. Lots of small issues that I had overlooked became huge ones… Frustration in life is very frustrating.. It doesnt allow you to concentrate on any other chore. It makes you feel like a loser. Right now I am feeling that way.. I dun even have words to blog. But do I have any other option?? I ve to come over it just by blogging..

Waiting for the date of joining can be really irritating when everyone around you loses their patience and term you to be good-for-nothing! And gaining the few extra pounds around your waist can also be attributed to the delayed date of joining! This actually came as a rude shock to me when I was going out with my friends after a long time and I found to my horror that my good old jeans never fit me! I was totally flabbergasted by the fact that I have gained so much weight that i ve to entirely redo my wardrobe! And now I am doing those crunches and diets to reduce the pounds that I ve gained so that I look normal when I join work! (Will I ever??)

Second reason of frustration is someone assuring something but not delivering the promises! Thats one fact that totally pisses me off.. I have been taught to live upto your word and when someone doesnt, it really turns me off.. I do not have to be hesitant here in mentioning that I have faced quite a lot of this kinda behavior in the past few months… People promise something and deliver something else. Or they promise u, show high hopes of something, make you do some shit and then just disappear.. If those someone are reading this post, I say a hi to their conscience! (And hey! I care a damn about you!)

I know cribbing a lot means (frustration)^2.  But sometimes you have to vent out your anger.. Like I had a fall from the running train onto the platform a couple of weeks back.. It was stupid of me to get into an overcrowded train and that too into a ruthless compartment of bitches. But when I fell onto the platform which was a near death experience, not even a single soul came to my help. I had to dust myself of the bruises and gather upto my feet and limp away with people watching in awe wondering “WOW this female is alive!”. I reallly felt like bashing up someone that day.

For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction! Such a cliched law by Newton.. But people not just use it scientifically but also philosophically.. Thats wat even Bhagvan Krishnaa told.. Watever u do, it ll come back.. Thats Karma… So what is it that I am getting back for all I did?? SHIT?? I know I feel like a loser.. I was stupid to be hardworking. I was stupid to oblige to my peers.. All my work has gone unnoticed.. Noobody even realises my worth..

For the rest of the world, I am just an entity.. Maybe this is the reason which makes people to show themselves to the world?? Maybe is this the neglection that brings out the Dark Lord in you?? I know I am thinking too much.. But then this should again redirect to my post WHY? ..

Anyways.. I really wish I could catch some sleep now to drive off my frustration.. I really wish I could talk to Vishnu or Viresh right now and have some joyous moments with them. I really wish I could go on a trekking for a couple of days and be alone with the nature.. But they are all just wishes.. If wishes were horses, even beggars would ride it. Thanks for the quote Siddhu…

12 thoughts on “Its a reason to blog!

  1. If cathy can be happy…I guess anyone can is all about what you decide to do with it…
    and of course, the darkness isn’t too bad to hang out with either…

  2. Chillax sandhya.. I know its useless to try to console someone when he really feels down. I have felt the same way. But understand that things dun remain the same always. As for the fall, I guess it taught you the hard way that this is how the world. When you fall, you are alone responsible for getting up. DO NOT expect anyone to support you. In a way this fall has been good cos now you ll be careful and sensible in chosing which compartment to get into. Apply this into your life too. Trusting people way too easily and doing too many things for people you hardly know and then in turn you get the hurt like the way you did from the fall. Thats the way life is I guess. I am no fakeer to be saying all this, as I have learnt a lot from your experience also. But as I share what I understand from your situation, I hope it helps you in whatever way it can.

    Here is another quote by Siddhu : In times of prosperity, Friends are plenty ; In times of adversity, not one in twenty.

    So… Do I need to give you further updesh? You are smart enough I believe

  3. @vivek: Hey Papps… Thanks for being there with my during all my adversities.. Although you tell that I ve to stand on my own support, I know you are supporting me morally 🙂 yet invisibly..

    Love you lots!! :-*

  4. aaww..come on.. That is all I can do sand. I want you to stand on your own like you have always done after all hardships in your life. I firmly believe you will come over this very soon. 20 days! 🙂

    I shower all my love and affection for you.. But you, for your betterment ll stand on your own. you are a champ sand!

    Lots and lots of love!

  5. Lemme pass on something that a long lost friend told me when I was jobless and frustrated and felt like a bad loser. This is the time to learn new things. Take up a hobby trust me it gives you a positive outlook. Everyonegoes through shit. But when you come out of it you have to have water to wash it off. Yeah kind of a gross example. But I am just passing on wisdom.

    You have put on weight. You need to lady. Cheers!!!Keep Blogging!!!

  6. Sandhya, advising people when they are in a state of frustration is absolute waste. I would seriously recommend you to read articles on productivity and change your outlook on life. Believe me, it works! 🙂

    Anyway, every human on this earth can relate to what you have been experiencing. This is a cyclic process, man! What i would like you to do now is just wait. Let actions speak! That is all i can say! You know better. You are a smart person.

    Don’t hate or love anybody. Expectations ruin us. Yup, it’s VERY human to expect from others, but you and I are unique, aren’t we? 😛

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